Mum's first birthday
After here death

Today is my mum's first birthday since she died on 21 October 2025, she would have been 81.

I don't need my phone to tell me when my mum's birthday is, I have always known this, it is on Bastille Day. I have always had my mum's number stored as a favourite on my phone, since that was a thing that you can do on your phone. When she died in October last year I didn't want to remove my mum from my favourites on my phone, just because she is dead it doesn't mean that she's not still one of my favourite people.

Just after she died it was hard every time that I went to the Favourites section on my contacts, but over time this has got easier and now I just remember the great things about her and the things that she taught me.

Firsts

After someone passes away there are times that you specifically remember them, these are times that you would usually sped time with them.

These times are generally harder the first time that they happen. So far there has only been two of these occasions, Christmas and Mother's Day. Last Christmas, or the First Christmas without mum, was too close to her death and everything was still raw and horrid. Mother's Day is just one of those Capitalist days that people are persuaded to buy stuff, just like Valentine's Day, and I don't need a made up day for me to let someone know that I love them and I'm thinking about them.

Well today is one of those days, mum's first birthday since she died. Yes I am sad. Yes I know that my mum wouldn't want me to be sad, but I am. I am also pleased that my mum is no longer suffering like she was towards the end of her life.

There will be another one of these first soon, it will be my first birthday since she passed away.

Flowers

Today my brother and auntie (mum's little sister) took some flowers to where we scattered mum's ashes in January.